God, if you're there, IF your there at all I need you NOW! I am struggling, I have no idea why you are so cruel to me... you push me down all the time. I BEG of you, this time... THIS TIME PLEASE PLEASE be good to me. Keep Les safe and sound and return him to me, have him come for me, help us communicate and please God, please do it now, I need you to work for and with me now, I have waited and waited and waited I'll say 25 years because childhood does not really count, but I've waited my whole life. PLEASE don't let me down.