If anyone see my post please pray for me. I believe im suffering from post traumatic stress and have been for some time now and just never knew and never understood why I was acting in violent ways abusing ppl around me with my words. My thoughts are suicidal and have been for some time now. I have attempted once to end my life, I have not share this with no other than my pastor. I wake up angry every morning then im sad, then I try to be positive my emotions are everywhere and very unstable. Yesterday I had a altercation with some one who I suppose to be in a relationship with and I flashed i picked up a knife in order to get his attention. Im scared for my self. I don't know what to do it seems confusion is trying to over take me. I just know I need help.