I've been thinking about something in particular for a long while now. And that thing is that I'm wondering about is if God can truly change a person. Take my brother for example: He's an atheist, a democrat, is gay, and was brainwashed in a liberal university in Conway, AR. If a person is so rooted in their own set of beliefs, in his case...evolution...then is it even possible for God to change that person? To me it seems like it's a matter of free will and maybe God can't go beyond that. If a person is choosing to believe in something or act a certain way with their own set of beliefs I tend to wonder if God can really change that person.
Then take my girlfriend's parents for example: They were born and raised in Illinois, and they had extremely horrible upbringings. They're the nastiest and meanest people that I've ever laid eyes on, and maybe they can't change? If people like that have been acting like that all their lives and just have a very cruel nature to them, I wonder if they can change too.
I don't know what to think honestly. Give me your opinions in the comment section. Thanks.
Thank you for your feedback Lori. This is really going to help me. I may have to listen to Joyce Meyer myself. I need to start listening or watching more sermons online. I only get to have one weekend off per month so I can only go to church once per month. The rest of the time I always work on Sundays.
Please pray that I will be at peace throughout the day today and that anxiety won't come and attack me. I had to call in to work yesterday because I got absolutely no sleep on Saturday night. I don't want to lose my job and I need to keep it so please pray that God will let me keep my job as well. Thanks in advance for your prayers.
I’m doing the best I can right now. I’m nowhere near perfect and I mess up with sin quite a bit, but hopefully God will have mercy on my soul and maybe He won’t send me to Hell if I can’t get free of some of these addictions. To be honest I don’t want them and if I could get free from Kratom and chewing tobacco then I would, but it’s hold on me is too powerful and no matter how hard I try I can’t seem to break it.
Also I’m not sure if God is necessarily saying no to my prayer requests. I just don’t think God can do some things but if He can then He’s limited in what He can do. For example my ultimate dream is to be united with my girlfriend, but her parents are extremely mean and hateful people and they despise me without a cause. God might only be able to help persuade a person to change but He cannot go beyond a person’s free will. So it might be that I’m going to have to wait for her mother and father to kick the bucket before we are together. I’ve never had anyone hate me as much I as these people have. They are extremely overprotective of her daughter and won’t let her live her own life. They treat her like a weak and helpless child and I am disgusted by it.
I just wish things could change for us. My girlfriend has a disability so she has to stay with them. We love each other very much and have been together for four and a half years now. You would think that her mom and dad would be convinced by now that I’m not leaving her. And she doesn’t want to leave me. Being in a long distance relationship is very hard but we have always pulled through for each other because we love each other very much. Unless her parents stop hating me then my dream is out of my reach and we are both stuck. It’s disappointing but I would not want to have anyone else as the love of my life because she’s that important to me.
I've come to the conclusion that it's possible that I might die an early death. There is no telling what kind of damage I've done to my body by lack of sleep, chewing tobacco, and Kratom. I guess there comes a point in every Christian's life when they realize that death could come take them at any moment. Therefore I've decided to seek a deeper relationship with God and study the bible more. I'm thinking of also engaging more in worship. I am in fear for my life and I have no idea when death might come and take me. It could be today, tomorrow, or ten years from now. I don't know but I want to live the most righteous life as possible to be pleasing to Jesus and not find myself sinning. I'm 35 years old now and I'm starting to get up there in age. Who knows when the angel of death may come for me.
I've been frustrated towards God towards a lot of things. I've mainly been pretty mad with Him and I guess I was rebelling a bit towards Him because I couldn't figure out why He was making me go through so many trials. It didn't seem fair to be in the situation that I'm in and it felt terrible to go through so much torment and agony over something I've been praying for within the past four and a half years and not seeing any results. I mean even after sending in 683 prayer requests to various churches and Christian organizations on a Google search I found it to be very discouraging not to see my dream coming closer to being a reality. It's been a major bummer but I'm not going to let this torture me any longer. It may be true that I'm not within the reach of my number one ultimate dream for my life, but I'm not going to let this separate me from God any further.
Therefore I give thanks to God that He has opened my eyes and has been working with me to bring about His purpose for my life. For a while I was starting to question whether He existed or not. However I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that He does exist and is alive and well within the realms of eternity. I'm going to try and be a better child of God and do my best to live according to His purpose for my life. That's all I wanted to say. Thank you for listening.
Being without any Kratom at all for a couple of days is torture in itself. If you quit it cold turkey you have terrible withdrawal symptoms. I was without it once for a solid week and that was absolutely horrendous. I’d never felt anything so horrible in my life. I wish the Kratom wouldn’t control me but it does. It’s a very powerful drug. 😫
I want to get to the point where I can obey the bible fully without question. There are some things that I really struggle with. Primarily Kratom. It's an herbal drug found off the leaf of an evergreen tree in Southeast Asia and it causes euphoria. I am...really hooked on this stuff. I know the bible speaks out against drunkenness and I feel like I'm intoxicated on the euphoria so maybe I'm sinning???? You know what? I have no clue. I have no idea if taking this Kratom is a sin or not.
There's some other things that bothers me. For instance I play role playing video games. It instigates the use of magic and I know the bible speaks against that too. But it's not like I'm actually conjuring a spell and none of the magic in these games is resembled even close to what you find in books in the new age section of a book store. I've been into role playing games since I was ten years old and I was good at staying away from them for a while, but I've been hooked on them for the past few years.
If you can, just pray that I can one day overcome these things. I really really really have a hard time with this and I don't want to go to Hell. I REALLY don't want to go to Hell. But I can't help but feel that I'm doing something wrong. Please God have mercy on my soul and don't let me suffer for all eternity after I die. T_T
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I really don't think I have a problem with him being gay. The concept has never bothered me before. I know as well as you do that I can do nothing to change his mind about stopping being an atheist. The only reason why I mention the brainwashing thing is that I know a lot of these universities do this. They speak out against Christianity and teach you to accept other doctrines and anything but Christianity. As far as my girlfriend's parents are concerned, I've only heard stories about them from my girlfriend. They hate my guts without a cause and they won't even accept me into their family so I'm pretty much screwed there until some miracle occurs...which in my own humble opinion, I don't see anything changing soon because of how much hatred I've seen them harbor towards me. :/