I'm really wrestling with God because of the injustice I've had since childhood. He's done nothing, trauma after trauma, almost every kind of abuse (at the hands of every family member and just when I thought I'd escaped and could finally start my own family - my husband became physically abusive towards me until I left). I don't understand how a loving father can allow what he allowed to Job. So much suffering to just one man but God is just? Yet others coast through life loved from childhood and favoured by God. Can you please pray for my faith. I feel really hurt and unloved by God, yet I can't walk away for fear he'll smite me. It feels like Stockholm Syndrome. I've given up everything for him (my entire family, my best friend; because they weren't Christians) I walk on eggshells to make sure I don't upset him or sin yet he still allows suffering day in day out, witches in my family cast spells (because they hate my faith) which continue to work despite prayer, fasting, reading the bible for hours a day, pleading the blood, praying Psalms 91.
He's taken everything and I don't have any more to give. I just don't know what he wants from me any more.
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