Lord God,I don't know until when I can keep my faith with You,I'm losing hope,I'm losing time,I don't know what will happen to me today and tomorrow and the next day,all I know I will end up in jail and I feel so helpless,I feel like You are not listening to my cries,what have I done wrong to have this kind of life,half my life I've been serving You Lord God,and until now that I left my own country I still look for a community to serve You and yet You allowed this to happen to me,I told You not to leave me and never let me go but it seems that You are letting me go,I feel so weak,scared of what may happen and everyday I keep praying and talking to You asking You to save me from what I am experiencing right now,You allowed me to come to a country that is hell and yet I feel like You did not guide me at all,You allowed me to work in a company who is delayed in paying salary for months and inconsistent in paying the salary,for me to survive here,I took a lot of credit cards and earned debts instead of earning money and be able to go back to my home country,I just take a credit card to pay my rent and food to eat and wait for the 1month salary the company will pay after what?2months,3months of not paying us,the salary we receive is not even enough to pay our debts,and then what,we don't know again when we will get our next pay and wait again,You allowed this to happen to me,what have I done wrong to You Lord God?have I been a bad child,I never forsake You nor anyone,I never fool anyone and I have been an obedient child since I was born and yet You allowed this to happen to me?why Lord God?why me?