dear GOD,

I don't mean to be rude but I have enough of this "solo flight working". I'm okay with sharing and contribution but not "all". I know it's a big responsibility God but I'm not ready. Please help my family because I'm really tired of helping them. I want a typical life for me wherein I start with trial and error but at this point I am left without any choices at all. Sometimes I'd wish I were a guy so that I will just take this as a challenge of becoming a breadwinner someday but I'm not. Am I suppose to carry all these baggages? If so God, just please give me the strength to endure all these coz as far as I'm feeling, I don't think I can make it anymore.