Struggling to let go of trying to control things in my live that I can't. Asking for forgiveness for the mistakes I have made that have harmed the ones I love and pushed them away. Trying to make amends for things I did that I didn't know I was doing that put distance between the person I love most in the world. By trying to bring them closer in a controlling way, I managed to run them out of my life and destroy the most pure and loving relationship of my life. Yes, love is a two way street...and it is 50/50...I am so heartbroken over my half, but am afraid to say I am sorry for fear of being rejected again...Praying for courage and the strength to let go of my need to control, or at least attempt to control things and people in order to make myself feel safe. It is a terrible way to live, and I hate it. It has cost me in deeply painful ways.