Dear Lord, I received my message from you today and understand it completely. Thou it is not an easy task for me I trying hard to except this. Please help me see my way thru this. As you know I was only able to see my son 5 times in 16 years and now that he is 20 and grown up I not sure if he can ever forgive me. He told me it is better late than never to restart this relationship and I agree but I feel like he is only doing this because his father is trying to get money from me. You know I'm willing to give what I can to him for he deserves it but I don't want that to be the only reason for him to talk to me. It hurts knowing that he doesn't ask for anything not even to talk it is me that is always asking the questions and waiting on answers hoping that for once we might actually have a real conversation. Please Lord help us thru this before it is to late. I want him to know that I never meant to hurt him and I was doing what I thought was right.I have changed since than and I want him to know and see that and that things are different now because of you.