This time of year used to be my favorite, but last year on 11/11/10 my Grandmother was put on Hospice and passed late in January 2011, and on December 10, 2010(3days after my birthday) I lost my only Son when I was 6 months pregnant to Potter's syndrome. My better half too is suffering as he lost his Mother just 3months ago. I need strenght for my family and sheer clarity.

I need to allow myself permission to have a life that is filled with all the possibilities/promises God said we can have in his book. I am so quick to give to others and always putting myself on the back burner. I need to allow myself to let go of all the baggage I have, I want a FRESH start without the yucky stuff that i've already overcome. I just don't know, but only I do know but for whatever reason I just can't do it.