Dear God, lately I've been thinking a lot about him. I was thinking back then, I thought he didn't love me. Back then, before I even met him, I fell in love with someone, and he broke my heart, and I was so afraid of falling in love with the wrong person or getting myself hurt again, I was trying to run away from love, I thought now that probably because I was trying so hard to run away from it and trying to resist it, that I cannot see the fact anymore of what is real and what is not, or maybe he also did fell in love but I was so blind not to see that. but I wasn't so sure of how he felt about me, he never said a word or through his actions alone are even barely, I was only following my doubtful heart. I came to a thought that I want him to prove to me something. I wanted him to fight for me, I want him to struggle to catch me, to run after me and secure me safely that I won't be able to get hurt again but in the end I still end up hurting myself in the process. I never really knew how he felt to me back then, I got discouraged so I turned my back and tried to move on, never really seeing that maybe he even did love me, coz somehow something in my gut was telling me that I should continue loving him and something inside of me believed that he loves me. I can feel it. Let me know God, are the choices I made, correct? If he does really love me, then God I am praying to you, please lend him your strength, lend him your wisdom, lend him the right actions so he will do the rightful thing a man would do for a woman in the name of love. Help him by proving to me, to say to me the words my ears had been searching to hear so that I can prove to myself and my friends that I am not only assuming things but it is a fact that what I felt was real, that he loves me, that he and I did share that special connection. I love him, God. Please don't make me feel wrong, please correct the things that are wrong.