Please please pray for me . I need to forgive myself for mistakes made in my past . a wasted lifetime : 20 years of addiction to alcohol an tranquilizers . I need to forgive and move on . I lost the love of my life in this time , and today , many years later , acceptance of this loss is very difficult . Please pray that I find peace within myself and and realize at only 38 another lifetime lies ahead . May the heartache of my lost love go away . Thank you .