Lord, I'm here again. I'm lost and confused and so full of pain. I'm scared Lord. I love that boy, as you already know. I've prayed about this for so long and I know you hear me. I see the signs, but Lord I am so scared. I would love for him to be my forever love, but that is all in your hands. Lord, I pray to you tonight to calm my fears and let me give full control over to you and trust in your timing, in your judgment, and in your plan. I pray that if this should not last, that you be there to catch me when I fall and mend my heart to move on. I pray that you watch over me and guide me in the direction I need to go. Amen.