May 15,2015
I feel as though I may be drowning ... I am excited for the changing of my job. The night of the 17th is my last night at Fairbridge.. after almost 5 yrs. I then start my new job at Super8 the night of the 18th or my training anyway. Marc is plugging along with his GED classes at skillsource and doing side work when the weather and his back pain permit. I am so proud of him- pushing through the pain to get where he intends to go...
Jamy and Clarissa have gone in and signed up at WVC to start fall quarter- Marc has his tentative schedule for his GED and starting college himself fall quarter as well- however he keeps circling back to what happens if I have to have another surgery... I honestly don't know what to tell him - he has always been the one who's faith is top notch- he is always telling me that God will see us through... I don't know how but He will... I am trying to have that same faith outwardly but I don't always come across that I do... I too wonder what will happen if he has to have another surgery. I too have a lot on my own mind. But really it all seams so fricking trivial.
UGH... I pray for some enthusiasm in everyday things. I pray for the drive for both of us to keep going putting one foot in front of the other. Not being down in the dumps and depressed.( both Marc and I have this going on and it seems that neither of us really can discuss it with the other. )I feel like Marc is distancing himself. I notice it when we are in the living room and I ask him something and he has his nose buried in school work. Don't get me wrong- I am jazzed that he is so gung ho about math seeing that it is what has held him back from getting his GED. Please get us to a place where we are free to breathe.
amen