Father God, please be the driver of my life, control my actions, my words, and my thoughts, renew my mind, my heart, and my soul; help me father and guide me from the negative feelings and thoughts of this past relationship that I had fervently prayed for with Anthony to become fruitful rather than fruitless; help me to understand and work with the pain that I know will soon consume me from the loss of a man I know I had deeply loved and only needed a sense of reciprocation, honesty and love from, and if this is your plan for me Dear Lord, please fill the emptiness and pain with your love, fill my days of loneliness with your presence, and please Dear Lord forgive me for any impure thoughts and feelings I may have for this man, Anthony; help me to forgive him for all the pain he may have caused, as I receive your forgiveness in my heart of hearts...I Love You Jesus, I desperately need you forever in my life...AMEN...