I received this message today:

Today, Donna, we believe God wants you to know that it is time to finally forgive yourself.
You've carried the guilt, the shame for long enough. You've kept your wounds open for long enough. The time has come to let go, to heal. Keep the lessons and let the pain heal. Yes, you know what we are talking about.

My Dad passed on from cancer this year on January 30, 2015. for the past 10 months, I have been carrying the guilt of not being able to get to him before he left this Earth. The burden has been so HEAVY. A friend of mines said this and I quote: " Do you honestly feel that your father wanted you to be in his presence and suffering when he died"? And thats when it hit me, it all made sense. My Dad loved me with all that he was and he cared for me as I am his oldest child.

I cry from time to time, but not from guilt, but for the love of my Dad. Its gotten better but the wound is healing. I just ask that you pray for my strength and my burden is light. Have mercy on my soul.. AMEN