Lord I feel broken . I lost all that mattered . I love Vanessa with my whole heart . I was able to be a dad for the first time in my life they were my world . You brought them to me I just want to be there the whole time to watch those two kids grow into better adults then me . I just want whst my dad had . My heart is broken . My mind is lost . I don't know who I am with out them . My will to go on is gone . I sit aND ask you to take me . You took Ramona and Robert 5 years ago . Now vanessa and Andrew and Sheila. My dad . I am alone . Never had anyone tell ramona. I ask vanessa to marry me and that was the path . I went to work and there gone . Camp life . Gone for weeks at a time . I am hurting help me God