Everything is falling a part. Have learned so many want me to fail, against me.

I want to start over with just my grandsons and myself. I need my income tax to come through this year with no hold backs and my inheritance at the right amount released. Going to leave everyone. Tired of people calling me out my name, belittling and so much more. I have sat back to insure others success and I can't even get a thank you.

Jesus I Can't deal with this anymore I'm going to snap, I need to live for me now in a good environment for grandsons. Jesus please show me your still with me

Happy New Year's Eve and Thank You and Please Please continue to PRAY 🙏 for me.

I want to Thank EVERYONE who has Prayed for us. In certain areas progressions have been made and I know I could not have done it without the Power of Prayer.

I sat back and let my Son progress this year and last. It gives a mother great joy knowing your child once moved out can take care of himself.

But, that now leaves me to pick up the pieces of halting. I am still homeless with my two grandsons in a hotel. My Son is their Uncle. Not his responsibility but he chose to help family at only 24. I'm Grateful.

I need a Car to move around, a Home, a Job and I'm at my Witt's end. I was supposed to get an Inheritance from last parent passing but evil sibling made sure I received non, I could not even get the three items I asked for.

I need a Financial Miracle from God. I need protection and for him to be my vindicator. I need his Mercy and Blessings with a thread of Hope. I tried to make crafts on side to sell but have just encountered cruel people. God is the only one I have in my life. No exaggerations. Except children but you can't have adult conversations with them. I feel so alone even though I should be used to it.

I'm afraid God 🙏 doesn't like me. I have been waiting in silence and alone for decade's now. I need NEED him to show up for me as he has shown up for other's. I truly need this inheritance but don't expect it. I've caught them both in so many lies. It should not shock me it's happened all my life.

I need God 🙏 this New Year to show up for me in abundance make jaws drop. I need out of this rut. And I know only he can do it!! I Give Jesus all the Praises and Glory. Thank You all here for being the only support system I have ever known.

Thank You so much for all who have prayed for me. I just don't know what to do anymore. Walking Alone on this Earth is getting to me. Three years still homeless, always had the responsibility for children. Now grandchildren. I think myself at least I'm trying while family belittle me, makes fun of me, and so much more. I think I will get ahead but like now it seems impossible while I watch others move forward. And it's so not fair. Especially, since I know them. The nasty things they've said and done. But still, the get marriages, cars, homes, money, family, idiots that believe anything they say. And here I sit, nothing no matter how hard I try.

Still struggling and feeling lost. Have had a few Blessings and I thank Jesus so much for it is getting us by. I started two gig jobs on side selling home decor and children's books praying sales will pick up. Still homeschooling my two grandsons and putting up with son. Just wish I did not feel stuck in life. Decades go by and I see people progressing and here I sit. Then I have to hear how people talk about me but you don't even know me or family members who don't even visit right call nothing but yet when a form of opinion against me. Last parent passed away this year late January and the funeral and The inheritance courts has just been a nightmare of how they like to portray me to others and then others are quick to believe I'm just sick of it. Portraying me in a negative light so they could be shown in a bright light. I have mixed kids mixed grandkids and I'm poor that's the only thing you got but you use it against me as trying to say that I'm less than. I don't drink, I don't smoke, I don't do drugs, I don't go out but yet I'm treated as a disease by family. With the inheritance of my last parent the only older sibling is screwing me left and right nobody cares, nobody listens. I just wish to God and pray that a blessing can be stowed upon me that's so great will be out of homelessness out of poverty and the roles could just get reversed. I wish I could meet great people and Friends to make family like they have done the only problem is though I'm not going to lie to portray myself as something that I'm not. My soul is tired, tired of struggling, tired of not having no one. Please pray God will be my protector my Vindicator and for financial blessings

As the days, weeks, months, years go on it becomes more and more hard to move on. To live a life where everyone abandoned you and shows no love for you is a weight I can no longer bare. Feeling jipped of this life if anything good would ever happen at this point I would be too old to enjoy it.I have given my Entire life to others do they care absolutely not. I have let myself go caring for others and I regret it. I never ran from my responsibilities and I regret that too. To stupid to comprehend and make my own choices I allowed other's to steer my life ruined since birth. Betrayed by all who should have been there for me. Always left to pick up the pieces. Now feeling ever more trapped raising grandchildren who have been taught to hate me as well. Responsibilities and my conviction keep me staying. Why can't I just be like everyone else and walk away. No home, no car, no family, no money, no physical appearance anymore, no degree, almost 50, not much of a life left and loosing Faith by the day.

I Pray and Pray and Pray some more and I'm still stuck. Still in desperate need of a Financial break through. Still living out of hotel with kids. Lost job in January, have not found something else. Trying direct sales selling children's books but no luck. My 23 year old son who is helping his family is burnt out, he needs feet surgery but won't because he is the only one working. Covid all last year and now has shut a good majority down in my area. I don't know what else to do. My grandsons my son nephews that I have custody of arguing, everything is getting worse slowly. I have spent decades struggling. Sometimes, I wonder if everyone would be better off. But, I have to go on. Praying for a major financial break through. We need money Jesus for weekly rent, food, son's surgery, a home, possible car, I'm begging Jesus on hand and knees, please don't abandoned us. Jesus name I pray Amen.

I don't know what to do anymore. Everything I plan gets rejected or denied. I feel that the people around me always do me wrong or treat me wrong and then want to treat me like I am the bad guy never acknowledge their wrong. I have no family or friends totally alone in the world. Still currently responsible for two grandsons well being along with three grown children who hate and disrespect me on the daily. I try to think positive but anymore so hard. I try selling crafts but nothing no support from no one but watch daily how they go elsewhere. I've tried mending and still the so called bad guy why I am spoken to nasty and belittled. My heart has been broken more times than I can count. I just don't know what to do anymore, I try and try from relationship and money and I still end up with emptyness. Please pray that my craft business will take off. I am homeless with grandsons in a hotel and still have to make a way.