Destiny Rose
Mar 19, 2020

Prayer Request

Please pray for me 🙏🏻 I feel so lost in life right now and I desperately desire guidance/direction in my life. This last year has been a roller coaster of emotions from the best moments of my life to the most turbulent ones. I met my person who completely changed my life forever in such a short period of time, he was the definition of a man in my eyes and things were incredible and healthy.

Unfortunately, I went back to my toxic patterns of getting in my head and pushing it away because of my lack of self worth. I lost him and during our separation I was feeling different and decided to take a pregnancy test which turned out to be positive.

It brought us back together and we were working on things and he was excited to be a father, then New Years Eve comes around and I miscarry.. which made him really pull away for some reason, refusing to come be by my side through it all. It was devastating staying at the hospital all night with my mom for 8 hours, but hey I can’t blame him for the way he deals with things. (Also I quit my job as soon as I found out I was pregnant because my job was physically demanding and I was trying to avoid any stress) Anyway, I don’t mean to vent but it felt nice.. I just want guidance on what to do because I feel reslly lost. I feel depressed again and it’s been hard to find a job 😓 I’m just so confused on my calling and how to even obtain the motivation to become the woman in Christ i’m meant to be. I am truly grateful for all my experiences throughout my journey, I am wiser and stronger because of it and remain blessed beyond measure. I just want to finally end this vicious cycle of self sabotaging by holding myself back. I’ve been drowning in my depression. It’s like a big pit that you fall into and you keep trying to climb out but you keep falling deeper.. idk I just need all the prayers I can get. Or any words of encouragement 💛🙏🏻