Why dont you walk out of that mess,There has to be some one that will help you,some you can stay with for a season,We know that the Lord is always with you,leading you,taking care of you.Keep trusting in Him,he will provide for you all that is needed.Trust Him,He is the only way.
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Arvin just keep trusting & believing in him