i have lived with pain for about 5 years now. working more than full time hours, coming home to a partner who didnt even help or seem to care. now i am physically ill, need surgery, and will be out of work for over 4 months. the place i work will terminate me, if i follow through, and i wont be able to support self/partner...am very concerned because my daughter has just had a new baby and she is going to need help as she has her own medical issues. i need peace and know that this is going to work out ok. please pray god will provide that for me, and show me what i need to do. i can probably go back to work when doc gets me walking ok again, but would not be able to have the surgery as that would take me over my allowed time to be off work. i hate that i might need to go back still needing surgery, yet, i need to provide for myself and my family. i feel helpless.