I RECENTLY LOST MY FATHER ON MOTHER'S DAY 2013. HE WAS 91 AND LIVED AN GREAT LIFE. BUT HE LEFT ME HERE WITH MY MOTHER WHO IS ALSO 91. MY DAD AND I GOT A CHANCE TO "GET IT TOGETHER" BEFORE HE DIED, I AM SO GRATEFUL TO GOD FOR THAT BECAUSE I CAUSED A GREAT DEAL OF PAIN FOR HIM DURING A WILD TIME IN MY LIFE. HE ALLOWED ME TO CHANGE MY LIFE SO I COULD BE RESTORED AND BE HERE FOR HIM HELP HIM IN HIS LAST DAYS. BUT ME AND MOM ARE NOT SO FORTUNATE. I'M GLAD I HAVE THIS TIME WITH HER, FOR I FEEL GOD IS ALLOWING ME THE TIME TO "GET IT TOGETHER" WITH HER BEFORE GOD CALLS HER HOME OR ME(whoever comes first). SHE HAS ONSET DEMENTIA AND I KNOW SHE CAN'T HELP THE THINGS SHE SAYS AND DOES BUT IT HURTS, THE THINGS SHE SAYS TO ME. AND WHILE WE BOTH ARE STILL GRIEVING, WE ARE BOTH LASHING OUT AT AND TO EACH OTHER. I HATE WHEN THIS HAPPENS AS I HAVE RESENTMENTS THAT FUEL MY ANGER TOWARDS HER. I WANT TO STOP AND BE THE DAUGHTER SHE'D BE PROUD OF IF AND WHEN GOD TAKES HER TO JOIN MY DAD/HER HUSBAND. I CAN'T FILL MY DAD'S SHOES BUT I SURE CAN STOP ABUSING HER VERBALLY WHEN SHE GOES WHERE SHE GOES TOWARDS ME. PLEASE PRAY FOR MORE CLARITY AND ABILITY TO STOP LASHING OUT. I NEVER WANT TO HARM HER AND GOD IS NOT PLEASED. PRAY FOR OUR STRENGTH TO HELP AND HOLD EACH OTHER UP AND TO BE KIND TO EACH OTHER.