I have a long struggle since my father passed in 97. I have divorced, lost 4 jobs in the past 6 years, emotional problems moved back with my mom. She now takes care of me therefore she is now struggling too. She tells me I help her she helps me. I am suppose to be an independent woman not rely on my mom.

I cant seem to get a job and the of it scares me I feel so rejected like I am not good enough or too old. My daughter is the love of my life she has struggled along with me, we gave each other strength. She has met a wonderful man and will marry next year she has an awesome job and lives 2 hours away from me I miss her alot especially around the holidays my dad passed 2 weeks before Christmas. NO matter how hard I try the holidays just seem to get worse each year for me. I just want to be happy, not depressed, see a light at the end of the struggling tunnel. I want to feel strong, independent, confident again. I really dont know why I am typing this I just feel I need too. I feel lost,

Lord, I pray to you ever night. Please help find what road to take, I know you are with me but I still feel so alone.