God, don't you hear my cries? I'm calling out to you! I'm begging you to stop the pain. You say i need to get my life together and begin living. When you know this pain is more than I can handle. It's crippling me. I love you God why is this happening to me? Whyyy? I love you why would you let me and so many of your children hurt and suffer so... why? What is it I'm not doing? What is it I'm doing wrong? Why are you let me be punished so bad? I love you. Don't you love me????!!! I pray you will heal me and let me have the dreams I was going to make real. This is stopping everything, and making my dreams come to a crashing halt. Why has this happened all my life? You say you're here, you say you are with me, then make the pain STOP! I need this arm to work! You're letting me die and all my dreams die. Please,....God...don't you hear me?