All due respect, how about throwing your deadbeat husband out!! 2 Timothy 3:1-5 God calls us to exercise the spirit of discernment! God is your husband, so TRUST HIM! Stand on His Promises and use the Word of God as your sword!! I say this because that is exactly what I did when my husband would NOT stop drinking, he was fInancially abusive and abandoned the family and our marriage when I was 7 months pregnant with our 6th Child!! God revealed to me later, that I too had a part!! I was no better, then my husband (who I blamed for everything!) b/c I was allowing it!! 2 Timothy 3:6 That is my fault!! Doing the wrong thing AND NOT doing the right thing or doing nothing is Sin, too!! He WILL help you but, you must surrender all of this!! He did it for me and He will do it for you!! Matthew 6:33-34

I am already making plans to get my finances in order. Once my daughter has a job we will be able to see how much I can save in order to put into place the plans I have. Then, God willing, these things will all come together and I can live the life I have always wanted to instead of the life I felt I should live. My husband is not included in these plans so eventually I have to be strong and tell him there is no more living off of me. I need prayer and God's strength to do that. I am not heartless...I don't want to put him on the street. I simply want what I deserve and that is a life that serves God and does what I know He has put in my heart to do.

Thank you for your comment and your encouragement. I pray you are blessed beyond measure in your journey.