Gwen.. There is nothing wrong with your Doctor increasing your medicine. I grew up with everyone, including family calling me fat. When I went to college in 1987 I developed bulimia and anorexia. the bulimia continued for 26 years. By the grace of the Lord, I decided if people didn't like what I look like, don't look. I have had a lot of relationships, and breaking up was so hard. I then became an alcoholic on top of the bulimia. I have been sober now for 9 years by the grace and mercy of the Lord Jesus Christ. I just wanted someone to love me. The last break up was 7 months ago. Satan whispered lies in my ears all of the time. I cried for days and had to start antidepressants and antianxiety medication. The doctor had to increase mine until I leveled out.. I am doing well now. I stay in constant conversation with the Lord Jesus.

Hi Gwen, keep the faith. Be careful of your self talk (what your saying to yourself). Find a good Christian counselor to help you deal with your past and then leave it there.... in the past. Ask God to help you to forgive your Mom for her mistreatment of you. Get involved at church helping others. Make sure you don't have anything else physically going on with you that's contributing to your depression (ie make sure your body is absorbing b-12, etc..naturalistic Dr). Treat this like a spiritual battle. I'm going to pray for you now, Dear God, help Gwen to start getting better everyday. Let her have positive thoughts and learn to combat the enemy with your word. Help her to forgive the people who have mistreated her. Bring some great Christian friends into her life. In Jesus name we pray.