Dear Papa G,

You’ve always known my hearts desire and always prayed its your will too. But most of the time I am always wondering why everyway is difficult for me.

Every plan I had must be retaken again or must have a new direction. Everytime I must cry and feel exhausted. Its always the same ending yet the feelings always new. I dont know whats Your plan for me but I am tired of trying. I’ve poured all my energy yet its not enough. I always end up crying and lost.

I really dont know what to do and feel. I am trying to understand everything but I end up being hurt. Can you please at least be on my side this time? Sometime I feel that you dont see me and ignore me. I dont know what to think at all. I just want to get past all this.