Thank you oh, lord for having these types of places for one to vent and request prayers. It feels so good to be able to do that. I am again feeling sad and dark inside and I do not want to be this way. Please pray for my sanity - some days I feel like I am going to lose it and nothing matters. I have so much to be thankful for but I just don't seem to feel it inside. I want to feel happy and grateful again. I have a son that brings me down a lot by keeping his children away from me and treating me very poorly. He manipulates things to go his way and when they don't he uses his children to punish me. Not caring in the process if they suffer. This is what is really bringing me down. I know that he has mental issues that are mean spirited. He brings such sadness in my life and he appears to thrive on the power thing. Not to even mention that the children's mom has very advanced cancer. GOD help us all to understand each other, be compassionate and make it through these very difficult times without losing it. In the name of Jesus I pray.