Please let my adult children make up with me..l want to see them and hold them in my arms so badly..l pray to God everyday and ask him to make this happen

Please pray that my children make up with me

Please help the terrible pain l have in my knees something over the counter will help with the bad pain l have no one to go to the store for me and l know tomorrow l have to go out to get milk

I HAVE FOUR ADULT CHILDREN THAT DO NOT TALK TO ME CAUSE OF THEIR USING DRUGS AND ME TELLING THEM TO STOP WHICH THEIR RESPONSE WAS WE DONT HAVE TO LISTEN TO YOU WE ARE ADULTS..ALL FOUR OF THEM DO NOT TALK TO ME FOR A FEW YEARS EVENTHOUGH I MADE EVERY EFFORT TO TALK TO THEM SEND THEM BIRTHDAY CARDS HOLIDAY CARDS AND NOTHING FROM THEM I ALWAYS PRAY TO GOD TO BRING THEM BACK INTO MY LIFE AND HE NEVER ANSWERS MY PRAYER..I WAS A GOOD MOTHER, THEY ALWAYS HAD A ROOF OVER THEIR HEADS, FOOD ON THE TABLE, COULD COME TO ME WITH ANY PROBLEM AND WE WOULD DISGUSS IT NOT LIKE I WAS YOUNG MY MOM WOULDNT..MAYBE SOME OF YOUR PRAYERS WITH MAKE IT HAPPEN GOD SEEMS TO HAVE TURNED A DEAF EAR ON ME

THIS DEPRESSION IS JUST GETTING WORSE NO MATTER HOW MANY DIFFERENT MEDS THEY GIVE ME...WHAT I TRULY DONT UNDERSTAND IS WHY THE BAD PEOPLE HE LOVES AND HAVE HAPPY LIVES AND THE GOOD PEOPLE WHO LIVED BY HIS HOLY COMMANDMENTS ALL THEIR LIVES HE MAKES THEM SUFFER SO MUCH AND DOESNT LOVE THEM BUT HE LOVES THE BAD PEOPLE IT MAKES NO SENSE TO ME AND AS I GROW OLDER I SEE IT ON MY OWN...

THINGS ARE GETTING WORSE AND WORSE EVERYDAY AND I PRAY FOR RELIEF FROM THINGS THEY SAY GOD WILL GIVE YOU JUST ENOUGH TO HANDLE BUT IT IS JUST GETTING WORSE I FEEL HE GAVE UP ON ME I LIVED MY LIFE TO WHAT GOD WOULD WANT A PERSON TO BE HONEST, KIND, LOVING AND HE JUST DOESNT SEEM TO CARE I SEE PEOPLE AROUND ME WHO DO BAD THINGS ETC AND THEY ARE HAPPY AND STILL DOING THESE DAYS..I AM CONSTANTLY THINKING LATELY OF GIVING UP IN LIFE AND DO MYSELF IN MY ONLY WORRY WAS MY DOGS BUT I KNOW MY BROTHER WILL TAKE CARE OF THEM AND THAT USE TO BE MY BIGGEST WORRY..WHEN I WAKE UP EVERYDAY I DREAD ANOTHER DAY CAUSE I KNOW ITS JUST GOING TO BE ANOTHER DEPRESSING DAY TO LIVE IM VERY UNHAPPY AND DEPRESSED ALL THE TIME I HAVE GONE SO FAR AS SEACHING THE WEB ON HOW TO END YOUR LIFE AND READING UP THE WAYS I DID THE WAKING UP AND THINKING ANOTHER BEAUTIFUL DAY BUT NOW I WAKE UP AND SAY OH NO IM STILL ALIVE..I DONT KNOW WHY TO KNOW WHY GOD DOESNT LOVE ME AND GAVE UP ON ME I LIVED MY LIFE AS HE WOULD WANT A PERSON TO LIVE AND I DONT THINK SUICIDE IS A SIN...NO ONE KNOWS OR CARES WHAT YOU ARE GOING THRU HELP ME WITH YOUR PRAYERS TO FIND SOME HAPPINESS IN MY LIFE AND NOT THING EVERYDAY ABOUT ENDING IT