When I was not quite 2 years old I almost fell over a cliff. My father found me holding onto a tree branch as my feet dangled over a cliff. Somehow he said, he found a way to climb down that cliff and pick me up me before I fell. I believe there was an angel protecting me and led my father in my direction.
When I was 6 years old I almost drowned, but a strange woman managed to pull me out of the water just in time!
When I was almost 18 years old I began to have mild symptoms of mental illness. I told my mother something was wrong, but I didn't know how to explain it and she said it was nothing to worry about.
When I was in my early 20's. I had just had a baby and began to hear voices telling me to put her in the washer as it was spinning. This urge became so strong that I started to become fearful and called my mother. She didn't know what to say to make these voices stop, instead she told me to pray and ask God for help. And so I did and they stopped!
Now some people think that I was going through postpartum depression, but in my particular case I believe it wasn't, because 5 years later the voices returned.
I was now married and had 2 children. My husband was controlling and abusive. Needless to say my marriage didn't last and I took my children and left him while he was at work.
I was fighting for custody in court and I was standing up to this bully, even though he told me he would destroy my life and he almost succeeded.
When he was given visitation rights. I realized I had failed to protect my children and couldn't fight anymore those voices started again, but this time laughing evilly taunting me.
I went through a mental health assessment at the hospital and was asked endless intrusive questions about my children and if I would hurt them, etc. by a team of so called professionals while in the psychiatric ward.
I remember how I felt then so lost and alone and my siblings as well as my father had abandoned me. My mother was my only support. I was to embarrassed and had to much pride to ask for support from friends.Instead I chose to lose all contact with them.
My journey through mental illness was almost impossible to bear, and there were times I wanted to kill myself. Especially after being over medicated for some mental illness I never had, and after the shaking that resulted in severe depression followed by horrible panic attacks, claustrophobia, anxiety, hallucinations and hearing voices...My mother had become my only life line...
I started going to recovery groups that I remember I hated, but now I realize it was the only way to rebuild what I lost. I also had a counselor through Mental Health that helped me to let go of my roller coaster of horrid emotions, thoughts and feelings..
Somehow I also managed to raise my 2 girls put up with my ex and his many attempts at trying to drive me over the edge, but no matter how hard he tried It never worked. I also attended a support group for abused women which helped me a lot and gave me strength.My mother was through it all a strong source of support. Even to the point of trying to work out ongoing issues concerning my children's safety with my ex, his nightmare girlfriend and her three children.
Several years later, they say Karma is very powerful!l I didn't realize just how powerful until the day. I came across some pictures that my ex was sharing on Facebook. I couldn't believe it! When he tried not once, but twice to build a house! The first time the men working for him walked out in the middle of the job, the second his house was finally built, but one night which happened to be on My Birthday! It burnt down to the ground! He and his new wife lived in a second hand school bus for quite awhile!
I went back to school and successfully finished college, but when working at a elementary school with a teacher. She was very controlling and disrespectful towards me which resulted in a relapse.
One of my sisters was very jealous of my mother and I's relationship and there was a lot of sibling rivalry between us. The arguement got out of control as we began to yell at each other incessantly. After it was over I had another relapse, but received no support. I managed to go to the hospital for 3 days, but no longer. I was told someone would come and see me to see how I was coping, but instead when she came over she told me I wasn't getting any help and no one was going to visit me and then left. I was in shock! I couldn't believe it! From there I had a choice sink or swim? I swam. The way I was treated so appalled me that I decided I didn't need them at all! These people were sent from the hospital.
I eventually recovered, and contacted my men health nurse but this time I began attending mental health groups that taught me how to take better care of myself, to speak up for myself and believe I was important and accepted for who I was. I also learned about myself and that it was okay to say, no when I needed to etc, but most of all I learned about Mindfulness and what it is to be truly Grateful. Especially to my wonderful caring supportive mother and the endless support from the professionals at Alberta Mental Health.but of course like anything else in life there are always a few bad apples in the mental health system.
I decided to give back the support I was given through out the years and currently I am a peer facilitator for the last 3 1/2 years at Alberta Mental Health. (Canada)
I have recovered from mental illness, but I still have issues with anxiety ;however since I asked for help from Arch Angel Michael it no longer has the power over me it used to.
I also have a beautiful ten year old grandson.My eldest struggles with Asperger's syndrome and I'm not sure what the future holds for her, but she does have a talent for singing and my youngest is an elementary teacher
When I was mentally challenged if someone told me I would one day help other mentally challenged people. I would never have believed it!.
I have touched so many lives and continue to do so. I give all the credit to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, The Father, Son and Holy Ghost (GOD) The Arch Angels and the Angels, Saints and friends/family above.
My future is brighter then ever! The possibilities are endless! GOD truly does work in mysterious ways! ALLEUIA!