i confess that i am not a great follower of christian faith.
i have lacked of attention to it.
i grew up knowing it by my family but when the time i must learn it by heart.. i failed to notice it..

day by day i am hoping to get my faith back...
to believe in something greater than myself..
to dream on that everything will be okay...
and that God is there always in the way..

i ask for a prayer not really for me but for my own family..
i would like to ask God to give us more strength and help us carry our burdens..
i am in deep curiosity about the real meaning of a family, i hope and pray that sometime in my life i would define it in a way God wants me to do..
i am praying for my sister to be stronger and to accept things that she didn't expect to happen...
i am praying for my mother to have a healthy lifestyle and to give her the strength which is my strength to live on..
i am praying for my brother that he might find happiness in everything that he will do.. and may the lord guide him to where he should be..
and for my father, I pray to thee that i can understand him more... that i can see what is in his mind and on what he really feels... i pray to thee that he might see what we are feeling for him.. to accept us not only because of family but because of being a human with a heart that cant be broken...
lastly i pray thee just to give me more strength and to be happy as all of us wanted to be...

i am deeply sorry God for not letting you in, in the first place.. i should have notice you and love you...
now that i accept that i am a sinner... i will ask and seek for your forgiveness... because i know that from the start i have your LOVE and nothing will much compare to it...

here I am again praying to thee that somehow He would let me know which bridge to cross because at this moment I don't know where to go. I've been dealing with what is the truth from the lies. I can't hardly say if people is saying the truth or just pretending in front of me. I have too many doubts in my mind, which a person whose ready to live has not. I am too far at knowing myself, I don't really understand myself and it is very difficult. Not knowing what you want, what you need and who you are.

I am praying to seek for God's guidance. To help me understand LIFE and to help me find who i am. My decisions are affecting alot because of my doubts, insecurities and lack of trust. So I am hoping that my Faith to thee will help me in all that I am dealing with right now.

In christ eyes I pray. Amen..

i pray to thee not for me but for someone whom I will meet someday.. he's life is in danger right now my lord. and even though i dont know him, i'm still praying for his health, that he may be in good condition. dear god, i pray because i know that alot of people are still want him to stay and needed him in their lives. I ask you thee to give them strength whatever your decision maybe. and even though I am not a part of their family, I wish that somehow they will pass this circumstances and that they may be stronger after it. Sorry God, for giving you so much headache and now I ask too many from you. i just want to thank for your kindness and that you are willing to forgive me too.. I am here and praying because I want to see something - like a miracle may be.. and that I may see your light into this darkness i am encountering. this i pray to your eyes my lord..