I don't know where to start. I have been alone my entire life. I don't really have friends, no job, I'm at the age where people are dating and getting married and people know what they want in life. I don't. I question myself why does my life suck so much, why am I going through such pain by myself, why there isn't anyone that can help me, why am I so weak, why just why? I have lack of sleep at times, afraid of the following days where I feel and experience these emotions and thoughts everyday. It has been going on for a while now. I thought that in the past praying about my problems and issues to God can help me. I have lost my faith. I have lost my ambition in life. I have lost myself. Everyday it seems to get harder and harder and it seems that that is my path in life, nowhere. I don't know how many times I have to pray to God asking for help but not getting help or answers at all. No guidance or anything. I am just sitting here with no road that I can see that can go. I'm angry, frustrated, sad. Where does the pain stop? I want to trust God but where is the help and support that I am looking for? Right now I don't know what to do or where else to turn to. I'm just asking for help. I don't want to feel this way anymore. I don't want to live like this anymore. All I'm asking is for help, for friends, a future to look forward to and forgiveness.