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ChristiAna

Prayer Request

I got out of one toxic environment where my mother was being abusive towards me and came to live with my fiance and his family. The other day I was accused of breaking the stovetop when I hadn't even used it in over 3 weeks. There are 5 other people living here including 2 teenage boys who have free reign of the house while I stay in our small one bedroom most of the day, only coming out to use the downstairs bathroom and make some dinner. But I have only used the microwave and the oven because it's too hot to use the stovetop. I feel like I'm being falsely accused. Then my fiancé's mother came upstairs and started yelling at me and said she never wanted me here and it's only because they're doing me a favor and I had better just shut up or find someplace else to go if I don't like it here. I'm trying so hard to not get in anyone's way but it feels like I'm an unwelcome guest and they're doing whatever they can to force me out again, just like my mom did. I have nowhere else to go and I have too many physical problems that cause me constant physical pain limit my ability to do things like drive. I try to help out but it's never good enough. Looked after all of the pets while they were on vacation and they still hate me. I work constantly from home but it's still not enough to cover all of the bills and I don't see how we're ever going to be able to get a place of our own. I feel lost, hopeless, and abandoned. I just want to die because I'm so worthless. Lord, please help me. I can't do this anymore. I'm just a huge mistake of a human being. Please send my suffering. I don't want to do this anymore. Make it stop.