My sister passed in 2008 with a brain tumor, and my husband passed just 10 days later with colon cancer. My dad passed in 2011 with pancreas cancer. I am left with my son to raise by myself, and being disabled is very hard. I moved my 80 year old mom in with me to help take care of her. After the death(s) of my family members, I became so angry with the world. I screamed to God on my knees why, that it wasnt;' fare because I was raised in an abusive family. God said I gave you the Sword and you choose to not use it. I did not understand, until I read Ezekiel 33:26. It said I was choosing to rely on my sword and not God. Therefore every bad was happening from sewage overflow for years in my yard and inside my bathrooms, to negative bank account monthly for years, strife in my household for years, bad health, overall bad things. And, as soon as I read Ezekiel 30-35 three or four times-it hit me. God game himself to me(God is the Sword). I had to learn to not live in the flesh. As soon as I realized this. The sewage was fixed for free, my bank account is not in a negative amount, I and my son has lost weight, my mom is improving on her health. Angels are being sent from the air it seems like. I love looking at the clouds, and always have. The air smells fresher and the trees look greener. My mental out come of life and myself is better, and people are coming to me asking me what kind of depression medicine i am on to help me for the better. I said- God! Jesus Christ!

I lost my only sister in 4-2008 with a horrible brain Tumor(she was a devoted Christian to our Heavenly Father) and she was proud of it. I was the black sheep of the family... 10 days later I lost my husband with colon cancer, and he was a drug addict and in prison for 6./12 years let me raising our only son. Lost my dad in 2011 with pancreas cancer(ruff death, and he got saved the last year of his life) My Biological father became saved and a humble man; I wanted him to be this kind of dad/man when i was a teen or even younger. I was abused growing up since I was 9 yrs old. I was sexually, physically, mentally, and emotionally abused. And, all of this has crippled me in my life today. I am a born again Christian, and I am struggling with these past issues. My son has issues of his own, severe depression, adhd, and I have borderline personality disorder, and clinical depression. I inherited $ through my dad's death, and bought my home, and car and paid bills and took my son on a trip. Since, $ was depleted we are struggling financially in many ways. As time goes on I see it is more important than ever to pray no matter what, read my Bible no matter what - in good times and in bad times. I praise God all the time, and I thank him for the blessings that have come my way and I thank and praise him for what is to come. I believe and Love Jesus Christ so much. I wish I listened to my sister when she was alive, (Kathy Blount in Ga.) Dear, Kathy, I know you tried to get me to go to your Church and get saved, and I turned you down on all those attempts you made to me. But, now I realize It was God I was Turning down. After all my troubles, when I became saved, it is like my light bulb went off and I realized I still can do what my sis wanted me to do, because God used her to help me. And , I am keeping that promise alive today. I walk with God, I tell other about God, I read my Bible, I pray, I do what my sister did, (I show I am a proud Christian). It is never too late. Kathy is my Angel in Disguise, and I am paying attention to my Heavenly Father. I see things changing for the better in my life. Thank you God, for loving me and not giving up on me. Do do not give up on life, God answers prayers, but in his time and in his way. Because my sisters strong Christian faith, I am here today typing this to inspire anyone out there to look at the bad and find God right in the middle of it all.