I am seeking as many prayers as possible for my situation. I am living with and in love with someone who is dishonest about so many things. He is continuously on his phone and signing up for dating sites and has other alarming things in his online history and when I approach him about it, he tells me that it’s from me poking and digging around in his stuff. He has secret email addresses that he is always changing the passwords too and the other night he told me he was stuck behind a train when I could see him on the google map and the map was showing him at an address that he had searched and it was a men’s massage parlour. Even though I have all the proof I need and know that he was there, he becomes very volatile and victimizes himself while somehow turning it all around on me, and tells me that I added the activity to his map and somehow was able to make it appear that he was somewhere he wasn’t.
I’m not sure how he thinks trying to gaslight me into believing I was able to make it appear that way.
He knows that I know the truth so him lying even more just makes the situation so much worse. How can I forgive him if he’s not even allowing me to find forgiveness at all. He is taking that from me by messing with my heart, my mind and leaving me without any answers or any truth.
Every time I try to approach him with a situation I need some answers on, he becomes angry and starts calling me names and telling me that he’s the one who’s really hurt and should be upset. Makes me feel so bad about myself and tries to make me believe that I have bi polar when I don’t. He refuses to look inward and I don’t even know who he is anymore. I am seeing narsasicitc traits and I’m so afraid. God knows I love him so much. I want to be there for him, I want to forgive and work through this but how can I when he isn’t taking accountability. Please help me, I need some advice and I need as many healing prayers as possible. I say these things in Jesus name, so heavy and painful I. My heart. Amen
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