I am extremely demon oppressed, and I need prayer for it. This is going to be a LONG post. What I'm going through is very serious and very traumatic, and I need prayer to be freed from it. (Mark 9:29)

It's worth mentioning that I am saved. I had an encounter with Jesus where I was convicted of sin in July during COVID lockdown and was cured of pornography addiction that very night. It took me several weeks after to officially acknowledge that my condition as a sinner is hopeless, and that only Jesus Christ is my savior, and confessed Him as my Lord. I have had a personal relationship with God ever since.

I could write essays on this, so let me sum it up. Basically I had a life-long problem with lust that I have sought God for and have renounced in its entirety. This includes masturbation, looking at porn, looking at women, fornication, any desire for pre-marital sex or any sexual relations outside of marriage, and all the like works. The reason I even reached this point is because of the demon that I picked up through this, along with my past involvement in drug use. Now this is where it's going to start getting into "you probably won't believe me" territory.

I have an extremely hard time praying, even in my thoughts, and if I pray reverent thoughts in my head, or if I try to do anything such as, bow my head and close my eyes, bow down with my face on the floor, or kneel down before my bedside to pray, my body starts spazzing out and I thrash around, I convulse, I'm compelled to break things, and today I came very close to actually smashing my head on the corner of my night stand VERY hard. Usually whenever I pray to God to try and thank Him, ask Him for help, or pray for another I will go to my bed where I have several pillows and plenty of room and cushion to throw my head around and scream. Many have said "The devil cannot read your thoughts," I'm here to tell you that by some means, the enemy actively listens to my every thought and responds to them. This may not be the case for you, and this may defy what you believe and know to be true, including "Only God is omniscient and can read thoughts;" by this, I implore you to please give me the benefit of the doubt.

I am raped and molested by this demon. Let's just say God designed certain types of touching to be a pleasurable experience, and designed these to take place between a wife and a husband - not between a victim and something that wants to kill you. Sometimes my hands will do things to my body that I wish they wouldn't do. I have dreams of being penetrated (I'm not gay nor have ever been gay) where I feel everything and disgusting dreams of orgies and sex, and these got SO much worse AFTER being saved. It's as if the demon is saying, "I know you're a Christian and trying to be pure and all that, here's some real nasty stuff to defile you!"

I frequently receive knowledge, wisdom, and the location of objects that I ordinarily would not find were it not for supernatural assistance. I have known what a person behind me is doing and what they are holding and what they are about to say before I turn around and see it for myself. I find it EXTREMELY difficult to do the right thing, and many of you experience this for yourselves as part of your struggle against the flesh that we all face - I'm telling you, if hand-washing is an ordinary procedure for me that I do to be considerate of others and clean, imagine every time that I want to wash my hands I risk falling onto the ground and screaming and convulsing over it. Now imagine facing that risk for every good thing you wish to do, such as washing the dishes, brushing your teeth, or praying for another. Imagine as a child you are spanked for saying cuss words and doing bad things, which is intended to discourage you from doing those things. Now imagine as a child you are beaten with the metal loop side of a belt every time you play with a toy, learn something new, hug your mother, pee in the toilet, smile, laugh, have fun - this is my experience right now.

I experience all kinds of delusions and am bombarded by all kinds of false spirits who hover over my shoulder and tell me all kinds of truths and synchronicities about the bible, and sprinkle in a lie here and there. I wish I could tell you more but I'm feeling really weak right now, basically this is just a cry for help and prayer. I've dealt with this for years and have been saved since July of 2020. I have been fasting and praying and asking for all kinds of help and have done all kinds of repentance, very recently Jesus delivered me from the guilt of being raped. I should mention that I never participated in any sort of sorcery, witchcraft, or cast any spells or asked spirits for anything willingly or knowingly. I believe that in spite of all this I have grown significantly in my relationship with God. I believe that the #1 thing standing in the way of that relationship growing significantly more is this very problem, which causes me to sin unwillingly and makes it VERY difficult to do the right thing. My head often gets filled up and bloated with all kinds of "bright" ideas, and I'm very very susceptible to being corrupted, and sometimes I fear that God will look at the corruption and punish me for it. I look at how Satan entered Judas and caused him to betray Jesus. I look at the desires of my own heart and fear for the things that I will be tempted and corrupted by with the help of the forces of evil. I fear for the person I could become if I throw in the towel and say "I give up" and walk down a path of self-destruction. Much of my experience many of you might relate to when you were new believers, but I feel like I'm experiencing the "new believer experience" times ten.

Admittedly this pain has caused me to very self-absorbed in my own experience, thoughts, desires, and has made me selfish sometimes in ways that I do not intend or desire. I have become very bitter, sad, dissociated, and even angry. People often know me as a happy person and ask me "What's wrong?" and they interrogate me. How do I explain something that nobody can seemingly relate to to my boss? How do I just casually explain "Every single day I am tortured and raped and manipulated and abused?" How do I explain to them that this is why I cannot give you my full potential at work? That I'm quiet today, because I'm experiencing something that if I told you, you probably would not believe me.

Sometimes there are days where I am unwilling or unable to pray for myself. It is my desire that at least 1 person would be willing to add me in their daily prayers. I feel slightly guilty for asking for a specific thing for anyone to pray for, but if I could request such a thing it would be that I'd be delivered and healed, and in the process keep the faith and don't kill myself. I am not a Seal Team 6 member to hold up under torture. I'm hoping that God might heal me from this, I have hopes and dreams of getting a career, getting a wife, having children, and perhaps pursuing ministering at some point when I am more spiritually mature. I have dreams of not feeling isolated in a group of people, of not being the 1 in a million person who experiences something "that doesn't happen to saved people." I have deep, deep desires of doing good things that I am literally tortured out of doing. I have life demands to meet and a basic human need to experience joy, pleasure, and companionship.

Thanks and glory to God, who has given me the grace to eat food, drink water, keep my job, make appearances at work and in front of my roommates and family, and has not allowed me to harm myself or be maimed. It is my prayer that I would continue to praise and thank him, and to clear him of any guilt and blame of this; the enemy keeps trying to forcibly get me to turn against and blame God and believe things that are not true.

Thanks to all who entertained this pos

I'm under demonic oppression which I need God's deliverance from. This came about due to being unwillingly involved in the occult. Let's just say it's been horrible, but lately I've been experiencing genuine hope. This oppression continues to affect many areas in my life which I need prayers for, ESPECIALLY my relationship with God.

I would appreciate any and all prayers and intercession regarding receiving my freedom and the salvation of my soul.
I would also appreciate any prayers regarding the protection of my property and assets, including my vehicle which my grandmother lovingly bought me to help jump-start my life, my finances, and my physical and emotional well-being. I would LOVE any prayers regarding growing a more intimate and close relationship with God, because He's beginning to unveil His goodness to me in the face of the wall of lies I was being pounded with, and I'm THIRSTY!

This battle with this demon has also really pounded my finances, I've lost HUNDREDS of dollars (which is a lot to me) JUST by believing the lies of the enemy. I would appreciate any prayers regarding the redemption of my finances and material belongings that I have lost to this.

They can kill my body, they can ache my soul, but they can't kill my spirit.