My heart is becoming so heavy again. I am losing faith and despair is starting to win. My friends only want to see me smiling and laughing, but this is not the truth. I know that there are so many more deserving and needing of your prayers, and thus I feel guilty for even asking. My life is becoming dull looking again and I have noone to talk to. My ex refuses to file for my divorce and I have no money to do so. I am afraid his evil influence is still working in my life. He is the devil incarnate. Please pray that I get away from his hold and find someone that has a true heart and a pure love for me. I pray that all of you have peace, hope, and love abound. And that all your prayers are answered.