Well the holidays are slowly upon us. Im still married,..but living a seperate life. Hes still determined that hes divorced even thought there is paperwork to prove hes not. Hes living on his own now...first time in his 46 years. Hes always had someone with him. I dont know if hes dating or not,..all I know is he is all about money and determined to keep that wall up between us no matter how hard I try to break through. I pray, I beg, I cry....but it doesnt seem to change a thing. How long am I going to live this stagnant lifestyle? How am I ever going to get on with my life when he still holds my heart? Ive asked him to go to counseling with me just to help me figure it all out in a calm organized setting,....my emotions run a gamet when we try to discuss this on our own because he is so bullheaded and wont even listen to what I say....God please send me signs, simple understandable signs that I will know what to do and how to do it....thank you for all the blessings we do have .....amen