My name is Ashley ill be 21 december 18th & i have two beautiful heathly baby girls (1 &1/2 year old named Lillie, and Kya who is 2 months) me and their father is having a rough time in our relationship, a really hard time. we are either going to make it, or we wont... hard time, i just really need a peaceful feeling and my mind to become calm and to be strong enough to be able to handle everyday right now.. its really hard because im in love with him, even though he has treated me badly, (not all the time, but still) please i need to get some kind of glimpse everything is gonna be okay, regardless of how i get there, i would love to get back with him but only if its meant to be and this time would be different, he wouldnt cheat, lie, or be mean to me. i need something to happen fast, i cant handle feeling sad anymore. i just wanna be happy, with or without him.