My prayer is of so much from finances cant get Christmas, trying to figure how to handle my husband and his diagnose with bipolar-depression he can get so down thinking no one cares because he doesn't get as many likes on a post he shares compared to others and then turns it on to me yelling and ranting raving and then he throws the past he had into it and starts on my family and son calling names cut downs and more and then few minutes laughs cause I look at him and he wants to know why and what he did. It hurts so much and then he says I have nothing and says divorce just to later say he is glad I help him and is here to twist to no ill take care of it you rest so caring and loving then back to yelling and complaining. I feel I am losing it and I love him I see the him I know my marriage is not going good and he blames me and others saying he has no problem nor at fault. I am trying hard to stay focused on God and our Lord and Savior Jesus but its hard to not say anything when he starts with my family my son and other things. I need so much and many prayers beyond words could say. Thank you and God Bless you all.