Dear God I am asking for your help
I love vanessa with my whole heart. But instead of showing her love . I go to hurt her I am still angry with her for leaving in July . We start getting close then I get mad again and keep telling her how hurt I am then cut her down . Then everywhere I go or do I am reminded of her or see her name . She is the first thing on my mind and last thing there before bed. My heart hurts . My mind won't stop . And I have felt like I only exist since she left . Lost her and her kids and my job and seems like I keep losing where my life was . I feel so lost . And I miss my family. Vanessa and Andrew and Sheila. please God I asking for your help for vanessa to forgive me and to give me another chance . My heart is so hurt.