Child loss survivor put on SSD in 2010 after becoming ill. I lost my Mother, 29 year old son and only sister in one year. My income level dropped and in the past 8 years I have been diagnosed with too many health issues - after being diagnosed with a congenital heart defect that can not be rendered healed via surgery - My friends have drifted- my two living children do not interact with me at all this year - My humble life has been devoted to God for so many years - but it seems as soon as I feel I'm gaining I lose again - and I am tired. Widow living alone with my sons cat- can barely make ends meet to survive here - I don't mind doing everything for myself - by myself day to day - just feel like everyone has abandoned me - and a special prayer request for tomorrow- I have a gut feeling that the best doctors I have found may not want to treat me anymore - I have pneumonia - have tried to get the doctor to call me back since Thursday with no response. God please place a blessing on my life - and lead me to the path I am suppose to be on with my spiritual journey.