Chloe I pray that you see the light of Christ in your life. Please Please I beg of you. Never ever admit defeat. The words from your mouth bring death into your life. Stop saying you are broken. You may fall over in God's hands but you will never fall out. Please contact me on Facebook if you need somebody to talk to. Greater is He that is in you than he that is in the world. Can I get you this piece of advice. Worship. Put on some music and sing to God. Sing His praises. Pray for others. It shines the light away from your problems. It is no coincidence that God in his word the bible say 365 times don not worry. One for every day of the year. Hold on. There is a light and a way out.