I am Flora. My life has been suffered for a number of reasons. Everything goes wrong and wrong and wrong. Everyday of my life, i thought of the pass since it was the most wonderful time in my life. I am afraid of thinking about future and taking a further step to make a difference to my life. I felt like completely getting lots among this world.
My family is too far a way while i am alone in here. I do not understand what preventing me having new friends. I am afraid of going out and making new friends because i lost confident of trusting them. I miss home, miss friends and especial one who i call " Oc". My feeling so mess up now, i could not able to talk with him, not able express my feeling to him anymore. I feel so distance with him. It bothers me , hurts me and broke my heart. It is silly to think that the world is meaning less without having him.I FELT GUILTY TO BE THINK OF MYSELF LIKE THAT BUT WHAT CAN I DO , GOD ? Every day , i have to remind myself that. No matter what happen, i believe that God would take care of my life and full filled my heart with happiness and re-joy but i feel like i am going to lose my patients. I am afraid that I am going to lost myself and my life will get worth. ..I am so afraid of it, father !