today's message hit me hard. Am I pretending to love someone so unlovable that I am denying myself the chance at real love to enrich my life. Am I losing my capacity for that enrichment. I have spent my whole life not obtaining substantial love with a man for long term ...so I feel like my capacity in that area is already lost. I pretended and was preteneded to have love but it has been agony...mostly except for the little feeling every now and then. Lord this trial will have things change one way or another and even though he does not deserve YOUR love or mine..neither do any of us deserve YOur love God but you loved us anyway. Jesus please love this man Hamid. Lord I pray you take him in your hands. Lord I pray that whatever the outcome tmrw that you give him the peace that passeth understanding. Jesus I am so confused about this situation. I want to be able to love and be loved for real. Help me to know true love and be open to it. Jesus there is so much in the way of understanding...please protect us and shelter us in your love...Hamid, his mom, myself, Ron, the crown and the judge. Give all the wisdom and knowledge of justice and bless us all and help us in our struggles. Amen

Please pray for me and Alex. We have started a relationship. I need prayers to have God guide us. We both need love so much. Jesus, Is this your will? I have feelings of love but also confusion. I don't know if I am beautiful enough or loving enough to carry this off. He has had a broken childhood and separated from his mom at 6yrs old. This is heart breaking. Jesus please help us. Please pray for us.

Pls pray that I am able to give some of the weight and care of major world issues where it belongs, - to God, and have faith that what happens is for the best, whether I understand it or not.