I have a prayer. Lord, it weighs heavy on my heart and you know what I request. Please lead me in the right direction to the job that you have chosen for me. Please allow people to see past my recent mistake and allow me a second chance. Please heal my heart and soul so that the sadness will turn into joy once more. You sent me a message yesterday through a song "God's Got This" and I believe. I truly believe. So as it says, if any two should agree, then so shall it be done. In your name, I pray, Amen.

God only you know my heart. You know the worry that I have been struggling with, the financial crisis that I am going through, the layoffs from my kiddos at work, and waiting on my unemployment to kick in. I’m sorry I haven’t been the most faithful but I’m leaving it all in your hands.

This may sound crazy or mundane, but I am praying for a friend. Yes, I have tons of Facebook friends, but what I am truly asking for...is, someone whom I can just hang out with, call whenever, just be with and chill. Someone who's not afraid to accept me as I am. Someone who no matter what, good and the bad, is always there for me.

I have had so many people be judgemental of me over the years and all I truly desire is for a real friend. A best friend.

They say "the Lord knows our hearts" and I am positive he knows I am extremely lonely.

They say "A friend loveth at all times", well if I had one to call my own, I would love them like family.

I have some people in my life, sighs, that seem to be on the wrong track. They claim to be Followers but their lives say otherwise. Mind you, I am not a perfect Christian. If anything I am a sinner as well. But I admit my trespasses and I don't try to intentionally hurt others. These people make me feel as though everything I do is in vain and some have even turned their backs to me. All I want is for them to stop doing the hurtful things, to be closer to me, and more so, to you.

My second request is one of Strength and Clarity as I attempt to Renew My CDA. Show me the path you wish me to go. Guide me GOD. Lead my heart so that I can honor you in my work.

My third is prayers for family members who are sick. Lord, you know whom I speak of.

I feel so alone. I believe in God, and right now, he is my only refuge, but I need a bit of a human voice or just someone to listen. I am a point in my life where I just feel like all I have done is not to the liking of anyone. Everything I do is just wrong in someone's eyes. I don't fit in, I push people away because they cannot understand me, my own husband mentally abuses me. I don't know. It's like I personally just don't fit into this world, like the kind of person I am, is just not meant to be living amongst you. That is how I am made to feel. I feel like I have failed the world. Like I cannot be me without someone to pass a judgement. I am sure one of you will as well. I am to the point that I am losing the battle. I am slipping away into a darkness and I know this time, I will not overcome it. I don't want your sympathy, I want a friend. A non judgemental friend...but it ain't happening. Once people know me, they leave. They always do. I cannot help the way God had made me. I can only be what he made me. Sighs, so my prayer is that people leave me alone and stop judging me, I pray for strength, I pray for a true friend.