I feel so alone..my wife and I are so far apart now I know that soon it will be over..I feel so bad for my kids with what they're going through because I promised to myself they should't have to go through what I did in the past..I'll try my best to forgive myself as well but it's just so hard..pain is all I know now..but it's ok I'll get through this..might as well be also due to failing finances..I know I've done a lot of mistakes in the past that may have caused all these..I want my family to know that I am sorry and I will make amends..even if it means giving up my dreams for them..