Kristen you are not alone! I recently went through the very same thing & I have finally come through it & look back at those days now. I am thankful to be on the other side of them. I wasn’t sure I would get past them, but I did. Please message me if you want to talk. I will listen to whatever is going on in your life. If you don’t want to talk to me, I will help you find a therapist in your area. Please know there are people who will listen & who will help.