Heavenly Father,

Idk what to do. I have relentlessly praying, sowing my seed, going to church, raising the children up to know You, singing the hymns, living and breathing your word Lord. And I feel depleted of everything. My faith not as strong as before. I feel unseen, unloved, not appreciated, emotionally and mentally abandoned in a time I need it most. I’ve prayed for change in my spouse as I approach my due date. I’ve prayed for restoration; I prayed to remove the seed of depression, resentment,bitterness every time that spirit visits me. I been obedient to your instructions. And I still feel a black hole swallowing me. Lord I truly seek your guidance for ordering my next foot steps because the person I love has emotionally disconnected from me. you showed me a revelation for my marriage but I don’t know how to attain it anymore. & then on top of that I won’t stop bleeding in my last trimester. And feel like he doesn’t care. Lord I’m begging you to show me mercy & glory. I’m lost. I need a touch lord from you . I need you to order my steps. I need you to show me how good it can get cause I’m tired of crying and being on auto-pilot to make it thru the day.

My marriage has been going through constant turmoil from the beginning of 2022… and I have faith that God did not bring Michael and I together and bless me with our second child several months later. now that I am 32 weeks pregnant & my husband has lost faith in the relationship.& tells me he doesn’t want to put in the effort to work on it; but he rather focus on passing NCLEX & new job opportunity.
Please God reunite my family, restore peace , restore the love, renew the trust and commitment in our marriage Lord. Let the Glory of the lord fall on my husbands heart. Let him fall to his knees and answer to the calling of the Lord. I told him several times how I’m fighting for the marriage all due to the vision you gave me God. And asked him to give the marriage a chance in name of God ,not man!
Please help him to see he MUST put in the effort so we can be ONE with you Lord & your vision. That the marriage can blossom from the ashes of infidelity & adultery. That ONLY WITH GOD AT THE FOUNDATION CAN WE BE THE POWER COUPLE he indented us to be & watch how the blessing overflow in our lives. I can’t be the only partner working towards the vision , remove the scabs from his eyes so he can clearly see how he is hindering the work of the Lord.

Heavenly Father,

I come to you with my heart fully broken. I kneel before you Lord asking that you hear my cries. Lord you know ALL the turmoil I’ve been going through from last year to now. And you know my heart. I know you don’t make any mistakes. I know you are a God who multiples , not divides. It’s not easy at all, but I also feel as though if I’m able to make it through this pregnancy by myself while still taking care of our daughter, working full-time, dealing with underlying childhood health issues, all while being a homeowner, losing friends, who I thought were family, and just overall being ABANDONED by my husband … I know that I can endure ANYTHING! Of course not on my own, because I’ve look to you to keep my sanity because of course there’s been times where I was just so emotionally distraught, I didn’t want to feel anything, I didn’t want to cry another tear, I didn’t want to feel any level of depression, I didn’t want to feel any kind of sadness/anxiety , I didn’t it to bleed out into my work life, or even my capabilities of being a good mother. And I truly believe that none of this would have been even remotely possible, if I didn’t turn to God for guidance. So with that being said, I ask God to grant me peace. God grant me serenity. God grant me blissfulness and wholeness. God grant me a “ love “ that embodies you. Grant me courage, Lord I ask that you grant me strength. And just help me Lord to see myself the way that you see me. So that no word from Man can penetrate my heart or my mind or my spirit.

Please pray for me community for a healthy pregnancy & safe labor. Bind up the bleeding. Like the women with the issue of blood on the Bible. No more stress! Just happiness. Rejoice in the Lord our God.

Amen