I don't want to lose the man I so deeply love. I've never had anyone in my life as calm and gentle as he is. Right now, one of our best friends is dying, and he leaves behind a grieving family and fiancee. I don't even know what it's like to be cherished by someone, so seeing someone die who is so loved is difficult. Our friend has told me the man I hold in my heart loves me as well but has not been able to tell me. (And no, he's not married. That is not the reason.) I pray that circumstances will not tear us apart as one of our friend's dying wishes is for us to take care of each other.