I am a mother of 5 beautiful children and I love them all very much. However, I have been feeling very overwhelmed and down lately. I can't seem to get a balance in this life after having my 5th child. He is now 1. I have 3 girls 16, 11, and 8. Two boys 7 and 1. I also have a very demanding job at our University. All of this I love I really do but, finding the time, patience and endurance for it all has been very taxing on me, physically and emotionally. Please pray for me to find ways to manage all this. I thought I was dealing with baby blues and now I am worried I maybe experiencing full on depression. This life is so busy and so hectic. It is so hard to plan and execute events without someone having a meltdown. Lately even I have been the one melting down. It seems so hard to do anything that I have pulled back and have not been doing much socializing or anything outside work and home. I know this is not God's plan for us. So I have started a small group for myself and I am seeking bible study groups for the kids. Thank you for your thoughts and prayers. No one ever told me that being a mother was going to be so hard. It is full of rewards but there are times it is just exhausting.